I know why omens came across again and again concerning how to lead my small clan here.
I know why we were told again and again, get away from Asatru (it isn't yours, you aren't theirs, etc.)
I know why we were told again and again to avoid following our own roots into Theodism.
I mean absolutely no disrespect to the few theods I hold in high esteem. However, as time has gone on, I've seen more and more dishonorable conduct, breaking of oaths, abuses of oaths, destruction of anything that might possibly serve the tribes of gods I know as the Ese and the Wena.
In the past 24 hours, I have found more and more disturbing information, more completion of the pattern, than I wanted to know.
Where I was merely saddened before at the failure of one man, I am now saddened at the failure of a whole theod, whose past actions are apparently reprehensible.
I have always maintained that tribes, theods, tuaths, whatever language you wish to speak about them, and whichever manner in which you choose to look at them (having ancestry and experience in both, I see a definite similarity), must be done either organically, or very, very slowly, over decades. You cannot speed up the process of merging life-paths, and while you can provide more ample ground through oath, following the form of the commitas, the commitas is not enough in and of itself to form a theod, especially if it is not done very, very carefully.
What I have come to learn of in the past 24 hours, has done nothing but confirm that.
Me and mine will have to remain friends of the theods we find to still be honorable for the time being, and watch this new "old rite" reform.
GFS I've seen, and found it unsatisfactory for some very basic reasons not worth discussing. In short, it isn't the tribal model that is flawed, it is the manner in which it was, and still is in many places, carried out.
Those theods we hold in high regard know of it, and so I see no need to mention. Since leaving where I found no value not so long ago, and then checking in again now and then.
This said, I've found two places I am willing to stick my toes in, one old, one new, and will have to wait and see what comes of it.
In any case, I am somewhat bitter, but in the end, gladdened to see the warding of the Gods in this way...